You once wished for what you have NOW

“The hedonic treadmill, also known as hedonic adaptation, is the observed tendency of humans to quickly return to a relatively stable level of happiness despite major positive or negative events or life changes.”

I remember the days when I used to day dream about living in New York. Walking down 5th avenue, running in Central Park, going to Broadway shows and having the city become my home.

I didn’t know how, I didn’t know when, but it happened.

I live in a stunning apartment, I see Empire State through my living room window, and running in Central Park or walking down 5th avenue is a regular thing.

Am I happy? Hella happy.
Over the moon happy.
Omg-I-am-here-this-is-real
kind of happy.

But do I feel this way every single day? Of course not.
Actually, I try to remind myself every day to just stop, take a deep breath in, and realize that what I once wished for, is what I’m currently living.

Yes, I’ve gotten used to my life here. Central Park isn’t as mesmerizing as the first time I saw it, I try to avoid time square at all costs even though it once was the most magnificent thing about the city, and I have day-to-day things to deal with, which makes me forget that I live in the center of the Universe.

However… I’m trying to establish a daily habit of gratitude, where I stop, breathe, and give my biggest thanks to all that I’ve already accomplished.

My 14 year old self would be screaming and jumping up and down at my current life. YOU’RE IN NEW YORK?! YOU LIVE HERE?! YOU HAVE A FAB APARTMENT?! OMG OMG OMG AAAAHHHHHHH!

However, my 21 year old self is now working towards other goals. Bigger, more challenging, different.

That’s the beauty of desire and growth. Once we achieve what we want, we’re onto the next thing. It’s a never ending cycle which keeps us striving for more and batter, challenges us to grow, and makes the achieving of those said goals so exciting!

I’m not the same person I was when I was 18. Heck, I’m not the same person that I was 4 months ago, and I love that. I’m not working this hard to be the same, month after month. Moreover, I’m not working this hard to stay in the same place. I’m reaching towards other, bigger, more challenging things.

Take a look at your life. I bet you a hundred bucks that what you currently have, is what you once wanted. Perhaps it’s a job, a house, or a relationship. Maybe you moved to the city of your dreams, or perhaps you now are a mother or a father; something that you used to dream about.

Stop.
Take a deep breath in.
Say ‘thank you.’

Keep striving and working towards new goals, but never forget to stop and pat yourself on the back. You now have what you once wished for.

xo, G.